改邪归正

(online translation: to turn over a new leaf)

this word came to me when i was asking the Lord why, why have you brought this particular kind of people into my life over and over again..

i thought my burden was only for those who are caught in the addiction for illegal drug use, i thought that was all i will be aiming for..

nevertheless, looking back, thinking ahead and looking at where i am now, i realise that many a time God has placed me in positions where He Himself would want to be, in situations where i can say to them what He would like to tell them personally..

it's not just the drug addicts, but all those who need to find "the way, the truth and the life".
and i know where they can find it.

i know it has nothing to do with who i am, what i've done or not done, what i've got or what i lack that He sees it best to arrange things this way.

in fact, most of the time i am convinced that, other than it being His divine arrangement and intervention, there is no other possible explanations for such coincidences.

sometimes, i think of Him as being the master Director of this whole play, designing the best backdrop, creating the most suitable atmosphere and directing His carefully selected casts, making out of it the most wonderful and breath-taking play. at the end of it all, the audience as well as the casts themselves can only watch in amazement at what He has done.

again i want to say, i'm not perfect and i, in my own righteousness am not in the position to say who is not walking on the right track. i too, am finding my way with all hope that i am on the right track.

but i know that He loves them. for He has said that..

"It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick...
I have not come to call the righteous but sinners." - Matthew 9:12

..and i want to be His hands, His feet, His mouthpiece, to have His heart, to see through His eyes, to hug someone on His behalf, to encourage, to bring life and hope to those who are waiting for His gentle touch.

as inadequate as i can feel, as imperfect as i can be, i know i can do it. because He has loved me, and i myself have experienced his powerful, unfailing, unconditional, endless, overwhelming love for me. :)

"But you were washed, you were sanctified. you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God." - 1 Cor 6:11

my hope is that one day, they will be able to say that too.