kenangan yang terindah

Songs that used to make me cry my heart out, i sing now with a smile on my face...
The feelings and emotions no longer well up uncontrollably when i stumble upon images that break my heart...

I remember the songs, i remember the lyrics, i remember the details, i remember how it feels. I remember how it used to be, but something must have attacked my limbic system. Those memories no longer come with emotions anymore, emotions that i have become so accustomed to.

When i see * holding on ever so tightly, afraid that a past unknown to her might catch up someday, my heart breaks. i feel so sorry for her..

When i see how ^ gave up on all the promises she once made with the truest of her heart, not out of selfishness but because it was never meant to be, i salute her for her courage. No one will understand her, but i do..

When i see how ~ struggles to keep her head straight yet her heart gets the better of her, i know too that sooner or later, she would have to make a choice and stop letting things tear her apart..

Lord, whenever i look back, whenever i think of things like that, i remember how you dragged me out of this crazy game. I wasn't the most grateful girl at that time but i am now. Thank you for every little thing that has happened and for every single person who has come into my life. I may not understand why but i am thankful because now i understand what others might never understand, or even ever seek to understand.

And because you came into the picture at just the right time, i have a special gratitude towards you too. =)

Bila yang tertulis untukku adalah yang terbaik untukmu,
Kan ku jadikan kau kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku,
Namun takkan mudah bagiku meninggalkan jejak hidupku,
Yang t'lah terukir abadi sebagai kenangan yang terindah..

p/s: sorry if no one understands this! It's more for my own keepsake. ;)